i dOn’t giVe a daMn!!

oh my god,here we go again…i think mgging emo nnman aq sa blog q. Lagi nmn ryt? and im so tired of being EMO-tional… you know what guys,, i have something on my mind ryt now..know what it is?? i just realize how ironic life is..wla lang it just came out of my fucking useless mind..

lhat ng gusto mo di nppasau..khit lhat gnawa m nah just to make it permanent or let’s just say to make it last..la parin epekto,,how sad! i cried my eyes out because of that..cguro ung alam ung story maiintindhan nyo q..

i’ve realized na sna i dn’t give a damn on him! sna i dn’t give my whole being..i dnt give MARGHIE to him..to the point that i made decisions on my own without knowing i’m wrong or even nkkskit n q ng filings ng iba,that i made sacrifices just for that person..WAAHH!!! i dn’t like this…im crying nnman..Hate it!! really…

i thought second chances are best..i thought it’ll work…but no! Di q lubusang maicp n mangyayari p ulit toh sken after what i have done for…..for know i cn’t say na totally nakaget over na q,,i’m stil in a deep pain ryt now..and know what?! i can’t accept that fact..FUCK!!

one thing more…i just want to apologize to those people na nskatan q..

ghe2- im so sorry if im like this to you..hope you understand why i’m like this..but really,seriously…im so sorry! it’s just nauna lng ung Putang inang pride ko. But to tell you honestly,,namis kita sobra… dhil khit ngglit aq sau…naicip ko na kaw ung pinakaclose q sa barkada ntin dati…so ghe…..I’M SO SORRY!!!

patty- sorry din kung naging rude aq sau..kng pinauna q rin ung pride q.. namis din kita..

kuya rich- kuya…sana mpatawad mo q sa lhat ng maling ngawa q sau..di ko kyang mwala ka s tbi ko kc kya ganun aq.. naicp ko nun n cguro dpt d n q nssnay ng nandyan k parati sken..kc bandang huli mhhrapan aq. Pro kuya tnx for understandng khit mhirap aqng intindhin..for caring me and loving me eventhough prang lumalau aq dhil ngttmpo aq..sna mging kuya prin kita….khit nssktan aq!! tnx sa lhat..

ast & kat- thanks for being their for me guys..thanks din for understanding me khit mharap aqng intindhin…love you!!

tf’s- maraming salamat,sa pagdamay nyo,,sa lhat2! iba tlga kau…kya mhal ko kau eh.

panu til hir nlng naiiyak nnman aq,,sna maintindhan nyo ko sa lhat ng nangyayari sken ryt now..

tnx for reading =’c

daMn my fUckiNg life!!

haay..susulat nnman aq sa aking blog.. anu nmn isusulat q?? haay,,bitterness?? sawa na q dyan… pro may alm aq! lam q somebody is wondering kng bkit aq ngkakagani2. Cguro it’s becoz im trying to be strong khit alm kng hindi q kaya. Na22 aqng tumayo ng wlang umaalalay sken..n22 aqng maging independent! Salamat sa lhat.. slamat dhil kng hndi nyo gnwa sken 2,di aq m222.. i just wish hapi k n sa bgo mong lil……….nvermind,,mis na kita!! but u dont hav 2 say or explain anything.,i understand! Narealize q nlng na hindi lhat ng bgay,,ngttgal..di lhat ng gus2 m mgging sau..nwei tnx nrin sa memories,,ddlin q un habang bhay…i just wish n sna hapi k n sa life mo…

idiota!!

hi guys i jst wanted to share what i’m feeling ryt now… di q alm kng tanga na tlga aq o nagpapakatanga lang..sket2 tlga ng nangyari sken..di q maimagine n mangyayari sken to!! im asking God nga y me?! cguro kc gus2 nyang mauntog aq at mgicng aq sa katotohanan..i’ll tel you the story pra di kayo magwonder! here it goes……

i have a boyfrend,,sobrang seryoso aq sa knya..sbrang mhal q xa. gnwa ko n lhat pra la xang msbi sken..i’ve sacrificed everything for him,,but still e2 prin ang nangyari,. mskit pra skin yung mkita ang boyfrend qng nhhrpan dhil nkpagsplit xa sa ex nya dhil sken…cgro di nyo maiintindhn kng bkit gani2 aq s knya… pro nssktan aq,,di dhil nkpagbreak xa dun kundi lam kng mhal nya un..we’ve talked yesterday,,and he said….”oo mahal q xa pero kaw ang mas mhal ko kya ikaw ang pinili ko”.. i dn’t know kng paniniwalaan ko pa xa after this… we broke then.. but the most painful thing that he did to me is that he texted his ex and beg her to giv him another chance…isn’t that great!!! sket tlga…kng cnu pa ung minahal ko ng sbra,,un pa ung mang gagago sken ng sobra.. i talked to him again for the second tym around and ask him if it’s true… he said “oo,,tinex q nga xa…ginawa ko lang un pra kalimtan kita!! galit ako sau..kya gus2 kng ipakita na madali k lng klimtan. dba giniv up mo q?anu pang pakialam mo..” di nya lng alm kng anung nrrmdmn q about it…khit na niloloko n nya q,pinili ko paring magpakatanga sa knya..dhil alm kong mhal nya din aq,,pro nagkamali pla aq. IDIOTA!!! khit lam kng sinasaktan n q tuloy prin aq… di ba q pwedeng maging msaya nmn khit papaano…sawang sawa na q ng gani2..,mhal n mhal ko xa!!

minsan nga naiisip ko kng may ngawa aqng mali sa knya..tinatanong ko xa,,pro wla nmn daw!! bkit ganun?! it’s so unfair…tao din nmn aq gustong maging msaya!! by this tym ayq ng magicp ng kng anu..cgro nga isang malaking pagkakamali na minahal ko xa ng sobra!!..

hahahAy!!

whaa… my first post!! what i min is my first serious post…sna nga!! mging seryoso 2ng post qng toh. Anu nmn ssbhin q d2?? actually kc what i’m feeling ryt now is puro glit,,sma ng loob…ewan ko bah kng bkit!! cguro it’s because im loosing my frends?? or let’s just say my close Ku–…..i dnt want to think about it  nah kaso,,gbi2 un nlng iniicp ko..i’m just wondering kc kng bkit gani2 nangya2ri sken,,puro kmlasan! di nmn aq ganun kxama..yah i know i’m a devil oftentimes,pro spaitin ang gani2?! haaay..puro probs,,tnx to my true friends out there!! for helping me eventhough iniwan ko cla becoz of others fault…u know nmn!! sna matapos na 2ng mga prob koh sawang sawa n q sa ka2icp sa knila.. sna mging hapi nlang ung pinapatamaan q!! sna tama ung gngwa.,and sana di k nya sktan!! di nmn kita mpi2lit kng ayaw m n q dba?! im juz ur…….Nevermind!!! just be happy nlng… happy nrin aq!!! u know how deep the pain i was feeling ryt now..? doble ng skit na nramdamn q kay james…pro i know wla kang pki ryt?! kc xa lng nmn nkkta mo dba?!!! cge na bka mapuno lng aq while writing this fucking blog…tnx nlng kay ast na naunang nagview sken., true friend ka tlga ast!! love youh…… 

what a life!!!!

hi guys!! im margie… first time q 2ng mag blog kya excited na q,, nwei this is my first time to share my experiences(anung experiences?!!) hala it’s not what ur thingking ha!!! but before i share it with u… those EXPERIENCES that i had..hmmm!! papakilala muna aq,, im margie!! haha.. sbi ko nga!! i’m 5′2 in height,,fair,MALAKI MATA!!haha!! pro di nmn ganun klaki… in terms of EMOtional nmn,, emo aq mdalas it’s bcoz aq ung tipo ng tao na n mlihim… sinasarili lhat. Haay!! di q nga lam kung bkit…cguro kc wla n qng nlalapitan!! or NAPAPAGKATIWALAAN… i dnt know y people are that!!! la2pit lng sau pag may kailangan sila… haay naku,,so much to tell…anu pa beh??!! mabait aq kung mabait skin ung tao,,matampuhin,,MAPRIDE!!! lam kung sin un pro mapride tlga aq,,lalo na kika — , –!! haay ewan ko bah?! ganun ba klaki atraso nila sakin?? haay naku magpapasko n may sma prin aq ng loob sa kanila… sna matigil n 2ng pride ko naiiinis na aq…. oh panu nxt post nlng,,tntmad na aqng magtype!!! Advance Maligayang Christmas at Manigong New Year!!! hekhek…